an SNL favorite.
the onion and cnn.
10.30.2005
it's 3am, am i stuck in a matchbox 20 song?
She says baby
It's 3 am I must be lonely
When she says baby
Well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it
-Matchbox 20
well, there's a lot to share about my life recently. i wanted to blog sooner, but it seems as if i never had the chance to really sit down and do it. sometimes life is like that for me.
anyway, not this past week, but the week before on campus, we did spiritual interest surveys. they are great ways to get in an evangelistic conversation in 3 minutes flat. i talked with many on campus at uncw that didn't believe that there was a God, but even now - two weeks later, there is one conversation that really stands out to me. i was with a student involved in our ministry named laura, we were walking and praying that God would lead us to someone that needed to talk. He led us straight to two girls sitting at a picnic table, it was warm out and a big clock overhead displayed the time, for these two girls time is not on their side. we approached them and asked them to help us with the survey, they said they only had about 5 minutes to talk. we promised to keep it at 5 minutes. we sat down, they introduced themselves. fuschia and mimi were there names. laura started with the first question, "do you believe there is a God, and if so, what is He like?" they jolted, "now's not a good time for this, i've been thinking a lot about it." eager to keep the conversation going i asked, "what do you mean, you've been thinking a lot about it." needless to say, we didn't need the survey at all. we entered into one of the most exciting conversations about faith that i've ever been in. my heart broke as fuschia described her life and how she didn't think God could ever be a part of that. she asked me, "do you feel sorry for me because you think i'm going to hell?" all i have to say is, wow. i mean, point blank. the holy spirit in me responded with ease - saying, "i don't know that you will go to hell, one day you might believe in God, besides, why do you care what i think, we're accountable to a Holy God, not a sinful kelly. it was amazing. God softened her heart. I saw this fuschia totally disarmed. mimi on the other hand was a different sort of wild card, she grew up greek orthodox but believed God to be a personal force interacting with us in the world. two seemingly contradictory ideas. i dialogued with her a little about this. at the 10 minute mark, i told them that i wanted to be sensitive to their time and asked if i could get back in touch with them by email to see if they would be willing to talk any more on the subject. they continued to ask questions and i asked more questions. 30 minutes later, we were still talking, i was mainly listening and praying that God would do something in their hearts. evangelism is always win-win. i was really excited about the conversation, knowing that God was totally doing it. this opened my eyes once again for the spiritual needs on campus. i really believe that fuschia and mimi will both one day know the One True God. i gave them the website everyseahawk.com and told them that a lot of their answers could be found there, but to continue the search for Truth.
this past week was a whirlwind, too. it started really hard. staff team conflict on a new level. God was so gracious this week. i've really seen a renewed passion within me for God and His word, i truly praise Him for this! what an amazing thing. one night before i went to bed i was checking my email. i had one from a girl wanting to know the historical and literary context of Habakkuk, i looked it up, sent her the response and then proceeded to read the entire book.
Purpose: To show that God is still in control of the world despite the apparent triumph of evil.
Author: Habakkuk
To whom written: Judah (the southern kingdom) and God's people everywhere
Date written: Between 612 and 588 BC
Setting: Babylon was becoming the dominant world power and Judah would soon feel Babylon's destructive force
Key people: Habakkuk, the Chaldeans (Babylonians)
Key place: Judah
it really stood out to me considering the condition of the world right now, the apparent triumph of evil. knowing that Christ has the ultimate victory is our comfort, but what do we do in the meantime? it seems as if evil lurks around every one of life's corners. so needless to say, staff prayer was alive as we prayed through habbakuk, learning more about how to trust God in the midst of pain and difficulty. i need You. it's a wake up call. it may seem simple, but i'm telling you, once you begin to realize you really can't live this life without the Holy Spirit doing it through you, it's a constant fight. i gave in, and it's the best decision i've ever made.
i've been studying 1 Peter. i am learning so much! i don't even know how to convey it all. God has really been teaching me about how awesome He is. and i don't mean awesome like a cheerleader might use it for a football team, i mean awesome like, i stand in AWE and i don't know how to use any other word to describe what He is doing in my heart. indescribable.
one night, the most random thing happened. i met a girl, teaching esl in south korea who loves the Lord and has a heart for Slovak people. wow, so random. mostly because i found her blog by clicking
friday night was Crusade's halloween party, we did it to invite and get to know nonCr
u people. i think it worked. there were about 50 or so people there. it was a good time, with tyler's sound system.
another really cool thing happened, God really worked in my relationship with Matt, He told me so much of what i needed to know. it feels really good to be in His will. i will seek Him.
more pictures here.
It's 3 am I must be lonely
When she says baby
Well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it
-Matchbox 20
well, there's a lot to share about my life recently. i wanted to blog sooner, but it seems as if i never had the chance to really sit down and do it. sometimes life is like that for me.
anyway, not this past week, but the week before on campus, we did spiritual interest surveys. they are great ways to get in an evangelistic conversation in 3 minutes flat. i talked with many on campus at uncw that didn't believe that there was a God, but even now - two weeks later, there is one conversation that really stands out to me. i was with a student involved in our ministry named laura, we were walking and praying that God would lead us to someone that needed to talk. He led us straight to two girls sitting at a picnic table, it was warm out and a big clock overhead displayed the time, for these two girls time is not on their side. we approached them and asked them to help us with the survey, they said they only had about 5 minutes to talk. we promised to keep it at 5 minutes. we sat down, they introduced themselves. fuschia and mimi were there names. laura started with the first question, "do you believe there is a God, and if so, what is He like?" they jolted, "now's not a good time for this, i've been thinking a lot about it." eager to keep the conversation going i asked, "what do you mean, you've been thinking a lot about it." needless to say, we didn't need the survey at all. we entered into one of the most exciting conversations about faith that i've ever been in. my heart broke as fuschia described her life and how she didn't think God could ever be a part of that. she asked me, "do you feel sorry for me because you think i'm going to hell?" all i have to say is, wow. i mean, point blank. the holy spirit in me responded with ease - saying, "i don't know that you will go to hell, one day you might believe in God, besides, why do you care what i think, we're accountable to a Holy God, not a sinful kelly. it was amazing. God softened her heart. I saw this fuschia totally disarmed. mimi on the other hand was a different sort of wild card, she grew up greek orthodox but believed God to be a personal force interacting with us in the world. two seemingly contradictory ideas. i dialogued with her a little about this. at the 10 minute mark, i told them that i wanted to be sensitive to their time and asked if i could get back in touch with them by email to see if they would be willing to talk any more on the subject. they continued to ask questions and i asked more questions. 30 minutes later, we were still talking, i was mainly listening and praying that God would do something in their hearts. evangelism is always win-win. i was really excited about the conversation, knowing that God was totally doing it. this opened my eyes once again for the spiritual needs on campus. i really believe that fuschia and mimi will both one day know the One True God. i gave them the website everyseahawk.com and told them that a lot of their answers could be found there, but to continue the search for Truth.
this past week was a whirlwind, too. it started really hard. staff team conflict on a new level. God was so gracious this week. i've really seen a renewed passion within me for God and His word, i truly praise Him for this! what an amazing thing. one night before i went to bed i was checking my email. i had one from a girl wanting to know the historical and literary context of Habakkuk, i looked it up, sent her the response and then proceeded to read the entire book.
Purpose: To show that God is still in control of the world despite the apparent triumph of evil.
Author: Habakkuk
To whom written: Judah (the southern kingdom) and God's people everywhere
Date written: Between 612 and 588 BC
Setting: Babylon was becoming the dominant world power and Judah would soon feel Babylon's destructive force
Key people: Habakkuk, the Chaldeans (Babylonians)
Key place: Judah
it really stood out to me considering the condition of the world right now, the apparent triumph of evil. knowing that Christ has the ultimate victory is our comfort, but what do we do in the meantime? it seems as if evil lurks around every one of life's corners. so needless to say, staff prayer was alive as we prayed through habbakuk, learning more about how to trust God in the midst of pain and difficulty. i need You. it's a wake up call. it may seem simple, but i'm telling you, once you begin to realize you really can't live this life without the Holy Spirit doing it through you, it's a constant fight. i gave in, and it's the best decision i've ever made.
i've been studying 1 Peter. i am learning so much! i don't even know how to convey it all. God has really been teaching me about how awesome He is. and i don't mean awesome like a cheerleader might use it for a football team, i mean awesome like, i stand in AWE and i don't know how to use any other word to describe what He is doing in my heart. indescribable.
one night, the most random thing happened. i met a girl, teaching esl in south korea who loves the Lord and has a heart for Slovak people. wow, so random. mostly because i found her blog by clicking
friday night was Crusade's halloween party, we did it to invite and get to know nonCr
u people. i think it worked. there were about 50 or so people there. it was a good time, with tyler's sound system.another really cool thing happened, God really worked in my relationship with Matt, He told me so much of what i needed to know. it feels really good to be in His will. i will seek Him.
more pictures here.
10.06.2005
What matters most...
I'm in process, just like you. I don't claim to have it all figured out, or even a lot of it figured out for that matter. All I know is that God is teaching me in dynamic ways since I've moved here to Wilmington. I guess, it all started with this summer, grounded in the Word and Who the Holy Spirit is, then here - marveling at God, His works, the wonder of His creation - land, sea, and sky (all which can be seen from the town I live) and the Cross, why did Jesus die? Big questions and big hopes of these things have been echoing in the chambers of my heart as I search far and wide to learn more of who God is. I heard it said that the least we can do is to wonder at how big God is. That makes me think...usually people approach that in doubt, but if you approach it in wonder, how big is God? Why does He do what He does? Like send Katrina, and Rita, Philip, and Tammy. Why? It's for His purpose, He will accomplish what He wills.
I'm amazed by God, it's a good place to be, amazement. It's really wide though, and I've found myself in thinking mode - asking "Why" a lot, like a curious 2 year old. But, I wonder at Him, who He is.
I'm reading Blue Like Jazz, which happens to be fabulous. Don Miller is a great writer, I recently finished Searching for God Knows What. Both very good and out of the box. As I am reading through it I think of a list of friends that I want to read it, is that normal? You may very well be one of them.
There's a list of books I want to finish before year's end. So I better get to reading. Good thing I'm on fall break where I can do just that.
Today, I decided with one of my Wilmington friends, Katie, to read and study 1 Peter together. I am so excited about it. It's so great to have friends here. Katie is on staff with Campus Outreach in Minneapolis, which is very similar to Campus Crusade, in that it was born from Campus Crusade to reach smaller campuses in which CCC was not staffing. CO works out of local churches, so in Minneapolis she will be working out of John Piper's church, Bethlehem, and is currently raising her support in Wilmington. It's so good to get to be here with her- and understand what she is going through. Support is so hard.
I love my small group here. It's so fun. I'll try to get a picture of them soon so I can post it.
Trust God in all things. Check out this verse. “ Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal. ”- Isaiah 26:4
I'm amazed by God, it's a good place to be, amazement. It's really wide though, and I've found myself in thinking mode - asking "Why" a lot, like a curious 2 year old. But, I wonder at Him, who He is.
I'm reading Blue Like Jazz, which happens to be fabulous. Don Miller is a great writer, I recently finished Searching for God Knows What. Both very good and out of the box. As I am reading through it I think of a list of friends that I want to read it, is that normal? You may very well be one of them.
There's a list of books I want to finish before year's end. So I better get to reading. Good thing I'm on fall break where I can do just that.
Today, I decided with one of my Wilmington friends, Katie, to read and study 1 Peter together. I am so excited about it. It's so great to have friends here. Katie is on staff with Campus Outreach in Minneapolis, which is very similar to Campus Crusade, in that it was born from Campus Crusade to reach smaller campuses in which CCC was not staffing. CO works out of local churches, so in Minneapolis she will be working out of John Piper's church, Bethlehem, and is currently raising her support in Wilmington. It's so good to get to be here with her- and understand what she is going through. Support is so hard.
I love my small group here. It's so fun. I'll try to get a picture of them soon so I can post it.
Trust God in all things. Check out this verse. “ Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal. ”- Isaiah 26:4
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