where God?

i might be going through a mini-depression, not clinically, but i think i am experiencing that let down after you are around some 50 or 60 people you know and love for 7 weeks, then you get back to the daily grind, there is junk all around you. you don't get along with your roommate. conflicts lie unresolved. i think this is when i start to sense that God wants to call me away from this. somewhere else. somewhere that i can focus on Him. the materialism junk is out of the picture. where God? show me so i can go.

i read irresistable revolution this summer. you should read it. now. so go on. buy it. in a lot of ways this book changed my perspective on my life and how i'm living. i am definitely in a process and i can tell i am being refined.

life in america

well i'm back. here i am. i miss europe, desperately. all i can think about it the people, the place, the culture, the language, the spiritual deadness, the food, the way there is no air conditioning, the public transportation, the prices, the exchange rates, the life there, our apartment in prague, being a local. all of these things and more come back to me as i am sitting in my freezing home in wilmington. it's hard for me to understand completely what God did in my heart while I was in Slovakia - but it was cool. I definite overhaul of my heart and things that I focus on. even as i think back to how i've lived in the past few years without regard to hundreds of other countries out there, in comfort. i know it's time for a change. God is calling me to something different, something not as comfortable, something for the world. i loved getting to know people there, being with the students on campus was difficult and really draining as we labored for two weeks to share our faith with medical and law students. some took the time to listen, mostly we saw girls turn their heads to their books instead of to Christ. it was a hard two weeks, mostly rainy and cold. the hardest part was trusting God with the results. in these two weeks and the weeks that followed i learned a lot about how God's word does not return void. it accomplishes the purpose for which it was sent (isaiah 55:10). overall it was a learning curve to trust God and take steps of faith. i think that might just be the definition of successful witnessing. now that i'm home i'm finding it hard to get back into life in america. people seem back stabbing, non caring, shallow. i guess i can be the one who isn't those things, and that somehow changes other people, i don't know - that's a ghandiism, and we all know that it's God who changes people. not us. if there is one thing i learned in SK, it's that. He opens the eyes of the nonbeliever, my job is to go.
in other news. lindsey comes to visit today, laura and heather will be down tomorrow, i'll be cleaning this house as it's not guest ready. i want to go to the beach - and i'm sure i'll get plenty of beachtime in the next few weeks.
i put 518 of my pictures online, so if you want to see them, you should check them out here.